victory is mine!!

My new Surgeon, Dr Matthew Geck, I really like him. He has asked me to quit smoking. He basically said he wouldn't do the surgeries and help me if I didn't quit, but he asked me nicely! hahaha I had wanted to and even tried to for a long time. But it is so incredibly hard to quit! This time he has asked me to quit and be clean for 2 weeks, then he will submit me to a drug screen to make sure the nicotine is out of my system, Then we will schedule the first of the 2 surgeries. The cervical revision. Well today I am 9 days free and clear of a cigarette! I have been so pissed off at the world for the last few days it is unreal! I have been bawling, short-fused, remembering things from the past from when I detoxed from drugs and alcohol! It's been intense. I'm going to push through this. I know I can be victorious!